I’m so over it….
My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
So, i spent a good part of today trying to decide how i was going to explain that i literally could not run a 10K! I fucked up huh?
I just wasn’t feeling it today. Nancy, my friend i apologize. I wanted to do this so bad and accomplish something special. It just wasn’t in the cards.
FIrst, i totally overdressed for my run. I do not know what possessed me to wear a long sleeved shirt with a tee shirt over it. No shorts either. I chose to wear my adidas capri tights. Yep i did. So, needless to say i was warm before even starting.
I started slowly. I thought to myself, this is so in the bag. Then i started sweating and my left knee starting hurting but i pressed on. I was running with 2 others who were keeping the perfect pace. After 2 miles i said goodbye to them and i was alone.
Alone with my ipod. I chose shuffle, so random songs started playing. When i hit 3 miles and realized that i was only half way done, my body started doing funny things. Sweating, cramping, my mind was yelling at me to stop. I kept going.
Four miles came and went and i swear, i prayed to the running gods to make this happen for me. Obviously, i didn’t pray loud enough. After exactly 1 hour of running i just had to stop. Fuck. I was literally 1 miles short of my goal. Fuck!
I was pissed at myself. Still am. I’m not a loser, just not a winner either. Maybe, i am being to hard on myself. I do not really know. Tomorrow is another day isn’t it? But, why today? Why couldn’t i do it just for today??? 10K on the 10th. Fuck!
I’m pissed. Let’s go have a drink of water!