You Could Be Happy.
I am entering the twilight zone of running. You know, that time of year where the weather is freaking awesome yet the runs are hard because of that very thing. You go out expecting an amazing long Sunday run only to be cut short by the blazing sun, ripping shreds out of your very being. Sure, I am getting mega doses of Vitamin D, but it is relentless.
I am naturally a hot person. I don’t mean hawt, I mean hot. Yes, I had to clarify that because most of you think of me as hawtness. Where was I? Oh yeah, hot. So, I do whatever any runner does on these hot days. Wear as little as possible, take some hydration, and I even finally succumbed to the walk break method, which I truly believe has its merits.
Today I truly thought I was going to run 8 miles. In fast, I knew it. There wasn’t a question in my fried brain. So, I set out and started my run.
Mile 1 10.43
Mile 2 10.21
Ok, I thought – I have this in the bag. That is until I turned around and that big yellow blazing thing in the sky wrecked havoc on my confidence. So, when I hit mile 3 I decided to walk for 1 minute. Just 1 minute. I absolutely could have used 2 minutes but I stuck to the plan in my head. Got that mile done in 11.05 and then decided on another 1 minute walk break. Just 1 minute. Got mile 4 done in 10.58. It was then that I knew that I was going to finish at mile 5. And when I say finish, I mean done – kaput – NO.MORE.RUNNING.
My mental toughness just did not kick in at all. I felt at that very moment, like a loser and a quitter.
Now, just to put this in perspective – yesterday I ran 7 miles with a new running friend. So, perhaps my legs were a bit tired? Not sure about that really. I am a runner for goodness sakes. Am I being to hard on myself? Probably – but tomorrow is another day. It just feels good to write this all out.
Obviously, for my longer runs up until the NYC Half Marathon, I will need to alter my route just a bit. Run where there is more shady areas as opposed to my boardwalk where there is zero shady areas.
The NYC Half Marathon is in just under 4 weeks. I am not nervous nor am I obsessing over it. It is what it is. It is 13.1 miles of running and I know I can do that. I’ve done it. I am choosing to keep my goals for this race to myself. It’s just easier that way, for me. I want to put it together in my head and think it through the best way I know how.
Sometimes, there is just too much information for my mind to take in. So, I pick and choose what is best for me and if that doesn’t work, then I go back into my mind’s vault and think about the day I ran a 1.44 half marathon and I try to get to that feeling in my running. It works. For me. JUST.FOR.ME. Every day that I run is a gift to me. And I accept it without question.
Running is not my life. It is just a part of my life. A big part and a good part, but just a part. This I know. It enriches my life and gives me confidence in other areas. Somehow, it works that way.
Simplicity is the key to brilliance ~Bruce Lee
I have been slowly changing my diet up and am including a lot of juicing and smoothies. With tons of chia seeds. Some raw foods – things that will keep me healthy and give me energy. Eating healthy is not only imperative for me, it is the way I want to eat for the rest of my life. I enjoy it, so why not make it a way of life? Sure, I love my post run pancakes and bagels but I’d rather have a healthy smoothie these days. Hardcore green juice too. If it doesn’t taste that good, just think about all the nutrients flooding your body and cells.
“Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.”—Helen Keller