What’s the use of wonderin’?
It has come down to 9.88 miles and me. No, that’s not right. It has come down to 9.88 miles, me and my right hamstring/butt. Yeah, thats right. It’s a fight now. 5 days ~ 9.88 miles, but it hurts to run. It’s not supposed to hurt is it? I’m not supposed to run, and feel pain, and limp and struggle, am I? I want this so badly. I want to reach 1000 running miles.
But, how ridiculous would it be if during the process of achieving the 1000 miles, I injure myself to the point of no return. I injure myself and I simply cannot run on January 1st 2010.
Is it plain stupidity or is it the built in gobbledigook that all us runners have deep inside of us to reach these goals that we make at the beginning of every year.
I think for me it’s a bit of both or none of the above. I think this post should really be a wrap up of sorts. With only 5 days left in 2009, I really should be reflecting and looking back, but most importantly, looking ahead. But, I cannot do either of those things until that distance up there squeaks and turns and rotates to 1000. I just can’t and I am sorry for that. I have been like this for most of my life. Setting goals and trying hard to reach the goal I set, no matter what. Ok, dudes if my leg were hanging off of my body and I literally couldn’t run, well then I’d crawl. Yeah, I probably would. I am that much of a moron.
And if you come up to me and politely ask me “why” I probably wouldn’t be able to give you much of an answer that you would understand, and walk away with, nodding “yeah, I get it”. It just is what it is. I truly hope you can all understand, and if not understand, then perhaps, accept me for who I am.
Who am I? I am a giving, caring, loving, daughter, sister and RUNNER. I run happy. I am happy when I run. I am happy when I am able to share my running exploits with others. I am happy running with others. I am happy if I inspire just one other person to run. I dig that a lot. I am still baby bear. I have so much to learn and accomplish and achieve. So, who am I? Just a person who loves the sport of running. It gives me great pleasure. Man, I’ll never forget the run I did with my buddy Scott. 5 miles in Central Park and we really ran fast for the last 1/4 mile. When the run was over, all I could think of was giving Scott a “high five” and saying over and over how awesome the run was.
For most non-runners, the thought of running 5 miles in Central Park at night in the cold and wind sounds not only daunting, but not so much fun. It’s fun. Believe me. Anything that makes you feel good, is fun.
With the internet here, I have so many folks “running” the miles with me. Two friends that I would like to give a shout out to are Matt over at RunLuauRun and Peter over at Runblogger. These two men are most exceptional in that they have vowed to inspire me and run the last 105 miles with me. How incredible is that?? I want to thank them both so very much and say with all honesty, that I don’t know if I would have done it without their help and motivation. So, thank you a million times Matt and Peter. You are both awesome!!
Plus, every single other person who has given me an encouraging word on facebook, twitter and Daily Mile. I thank you so very much.
Then, the thing that you dread the most slowly starts happening. You feel a little pain when running and think to yourself, “eh, its nothing”. Then tomorrow comes and that pain is still there plus some more cruddy feelings that just don’t quit. Day three and your butt starts yelling at you. Shit happens. But shit simply cannot happen when I am trying to reach 1000 miles. It just cannot.
So, 5 days 9.88 miles. You know damn well its going to happen. You know damn well, I will make it happen. And none of those 9.88 miles will be walking. Not that there’s anything wrong with walking, but hey, I’m a runner.
So, don’t wonder. I am here to tell you it will be done. And I am here to tell you, that once it’s done, I will blog about it, I will probably twitter about it. I will write up a post over at Daily Mile and then 2010 comes and I start all over again. That is the way it goes with us runners right?
“Daylight has found me here again. You can ask me anything but where I’ve been.” – Alison Moorer
Remember, the feeling you get from a good run is far better than the feeling you get from sitting around wishing you were running!